‘Take Me As I am’ by FM Static
This time I finally see the reason why
I can't do this alone
It took some time and concentration
To believe it, this I know.
I need to build my faith sometimes
But I am so comfortable in line
I'm up there's no more time,
To try to mess with this design

Two nights compete everyone's asleep
and I don't want to say these words to you
I'll be your hand take me as I am
I just wanna be with you

Take me as I am cause I'm going
I was too scared to start now
I'm too scared to let go
Take me as I am, cause I'm growing
but its so hard to tell when I'm not used to this soul
Take me as I am, cause I'm going
I was too scared to start now I'm too scared to let go
Take me as I am, Cause I'm growing
but its so hard to tell when I'm not used to this soul

I lift my voice to sing out
Let the sound of my heart bring out
These hands aren't holding me down
Never again will I be with out
I need to feel my faith sometimes
But I am so comfortable in line
I'm up there's no more time
To try to mess with this design

Two nights compete everyone's asleep
and I don't want to say these words to you
I'll be your hand take me as I am
I just wanna be with you

Take me as I am, cause I'm going
I was too scared to start now
I'm too scared to let go
Take me as I am, cause I'm growing
but its so hard to tell when
I'm not used to this soul
Take me as I am, cause I'm going
I was too scared to start now I'm too scared to let go
Take me as I am, cause I'm growing
But its so hard to tell when I'm not used to this soul

wah this song is so stuck in my head now. LOL.

it's niceeeeeeeee! go and listen! :D

yeah this is random though. hahaha! :D

i'm so glad she had got over it so soon. :D

When I first heard the sad news, I felt devastated inside, like seriously.
Why did she have to leave us?
I thought she would live longer.

She was such a kind and friendly person to me when I was young.
Always so concerned about me.
Always invited me to stay/play at her house.
Always bringing me and eliza around to play.
Always giving me stuffs.
And I am really appreciative of it.

She's such a nice person.
Why did she have to get such an illness?
Why did she have to leave this place?
I thought that she live a much fulfilling and long life.

Even though this earth is not our home,
And Heaven is where all of us, christians, will go eventually.
But still, when our loved ones leave us,
We'll still cry, yearn and miss them.

I am sorry for not being there for you physically.
I felt helpless when I realised I wasn't there for you.
I wanted to be there by your side,
comforting you,
lending my shoulders to you.

But this reality is so cruel and harsh.
I couldn't be there at that point of time.
I couldn't help you at that moment.
Even if I wanted to.

I guess all these are in accordance to God's will.
There's nothing we can do about it.
Let's leave everything into God's hands.
God will take care of everything.

She will leave us for a better place,
where there will be
no more sorrows,
no more pains,
no more sufferings.
It might be better for her this way.
God wants to take her back.
And we can't do anything to stop it.

Everyone will have to leave this earth one day.
It's just a matter of time.
We'll just have to accept this cruel reality.

Even though I know that time will not heal,
But I still hope you and your family will
stay strong physically and spiritually.

I know that whatever I say
won't bring back your beloved mom back to life
And I know that whatever I say
would not be able to comfort your broken heart.

I sincerely hope that you will continue to be steadfast in your faith.
It's hard to accept this.
I know it's hard to take this easy.

Don't worry,
I will walk this through with you.

*She is the late Aunt Meow Cheng.

For the past few days, i had been to the polys' open houses.

Singapore poly:
The goodie bag looks like those christmas bag but the things inside were great! :D
Their lecturers were friendly and helpful.
Their students were fluent and clear in explaining the courses.
However, there were not much games and all.

Ngee Ann Poly:
The goodie bag is not bad. Inside the bag: TEENAGE! NOTEBOOK! NOTEPAD! etc.
Good luck 'O' donuts! Nescafe original! HAHHAA! :D
It was quite enthu and all.
But by that time, we were all shag. LOL.
Too lazy to play games. Hees. (:

Nanyang Poly:
The games were quite fun! won a few prizes! HAHA :D
the goodie bag was niceee! coooool!
People there were quite friendly and approachable too. :D

Temasek Poly:
The goodie bag, only the cover was nice. oops!
Students there was not very helpful cos' we stood in front of their booth, and they knew we were there, but they didn't initiate anything at all. tsk.
We have to listen to their talks and all. Kinda boring though.
Tried their blueberry cookies! niceee! HAHAHA :D

Republic Poly:
Had no time to go there. Hahaha.
So no comments :D

Yesterday, was supposed to be something special for the red campers (and i'm one of them!) @ ngee ann. However, I had a youth fellowship (ultimate frisbee!). To put priorities right, I went for the ultimate, of course, since one of my 2010 resolutions is to be more involve in church activities. So I decided to do it. LOL. I forgo the redcamp special. Anyways, I have seen most of ngee ann poly already. Hence, there's no point going for it. Even though there was free movie (under the stars?!) and free dinner for redcampers. HAHAHA.

Ultimate frisbee was fun, but not as fun as captain ball or netball or basketball, in my case. Cos' playing frisbee involves much teamwork, discipline, footwork, skills, etc. Apparently, I don't have the skills and knowledge to play it. All my throws were kinda sucky. It's not that easy to throw to my teammates as it's difficult to control the frisbee. Cos' there might be wind and all. Yeah.

After that, went for lunch. Wanted to play Basketball after that.
Not enough people. Chan not at home so can't take his Bball. Totally sian.
I thought i had to hang around at don't-know-where.
Luckily, David sort of invited us to his house to play his X-box guitar or whatever.
I simply sucked at it. My coordination of both my left and right hand is like gg.
Somemore I was kinda tired at that time so ya.

Went personal work. Did the private apartments/bungalows.
They were hugeeeee.
One of them even have a pool table at the porch.
oh-my-tians! It's so cool luhs! I also want! HAHAHA!
even though I know it would only be in my dreams. LOL.

Today, went for service. bible class. lunch.
After that, went to Aunt Meow Cheng's house to visit her.
I was shocked to see the state that she is in.
Weak and frail.
She had lost a lot of weight from her treatment.
Had a mini "worship" as she was unable to attend service at the church building.
Now I can really understand how my bff and her siblings feel.
They just feel even worst as she is their mother, a close one.
Left early with sweetie cos' of her tuition. Together with lucas and chan.

To Bff:
You have to stand strong with your family, especially at this critical period of time.
Don't worry, I will stand by you too. You can pour your troubles to me anytime.
You can also cry on my shoulders, even though i'm not D. LOL. :D

RESULTS COMING OUT TOMORROWWWWW! ARGHHHHHH!
SO SCARY CAN! =X
ALL THE BEST! :D

2009 was indeed a stressful and busy year for me.
All because of 'O' levels. HAHAHA. :D
i had been hearing lots of naggings from my mom and teachers. (sorry!)
i had been complaning so much so that i've got sick of it.
& i had decided to stop it.
Set down my heart and study for the 'O's.
However, i guess i didn't mug as hard as some of my friends did.
After the 'O's, i felt ecstatic yet distressing.
Ecstatic because the 'O's are finally over! No more muggings! Here comes the long hols!
Distressing because i felt that i was not that prepared and i'm afraid to see my results in Jan.
Thinking back, all these was just an experience.
All of us had to go through this.
We are all in this together. :D
With all my family and friends' help, i managed to get through 2009.
And I'm really thankful and grateful to them!


I hope that 2010 will be a great and fun year for me!
I will make full use of the time in all aspects. (i try!)
As (almost) everyone have new year resolutions, i am no exception either.


1. CHARACTER:
i hope that i will become a better person.
Helpful. Caring towards others around me. Take my own initiative.
More friendly. Fun. Enthusiastic.
Brave to voice out my opinions and views, etc.


2. SPIRITUAL:
i hope that i will make use of my time to be involve in church activities.
Help to organise and participate in church stuffs. :D
Encourage others through works. :D
More knowledgable about the Bible. :D
Prepare and teach lessons to children. :D


3. PHYSICAL:
i hope that i will become more fit. (cos' i had not been exercising for quite some time. oh no.)
Play basketball with my friends. :D
Runs with my dad. :D
Maybe biking? swimming? HAHAHA :D


As (almost) all of us know that results will come out next monday,
and i'm really scared about it, i hope that all of us will get our desirable results.
Because i didn't get the results that i wanted for my PSLE.
& i was really depressed about it.
It was below my expectations, that's why.
I'm really afraid of getting results.
I hate that feeling.
BUT i have to take it. Face the reality. The cruel reality.
Noooooooo.


Alrights, i shall stop here for today.
I hope this post hasn't make anyone of you feel emo or whatever.
I wish everyone to be cheerful and happy in the year 2010!
ALL THE BEST ALRIGHTS! :D

HELLO 2010! Goodbyes 2009!
happy new year everyone!
i just wanna change blogskin as we welcome the new year :D


i'm so sorry for not updating my blog in Dec 2009.
I'm so so so involved in VBS! YDP! Pri Sch Gathering! Jurong's Countdown to 2o1o! :D
i shall put some photos up to give you a glimpse of it alrights! :D


VBS!
It's a children camp :D














i love them loads :D














YDP!
It's a youth camp combined with the Malaysians! FUN! :D















SINGAPORE ASSEMBLE! :D














6B gathering!
a get-together after 4 donkey years! :D














Countdown @ Jurong!
sorry, i don't have the group photo! (i think didn't take. oops!)


























alrights, done for tonight. :D
i will update more the next post. stay tuned! :D
happy new year once again!